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What’s a blog from me without a new bout of withdrawal?
I can’t sleep. Neither painkillers nor sleeping pills are having any effect.
I feel lie I’m being wound in opposing directions, like wringing a cloth, physically, emotionally, and whatever something like “mentally”. Physically it really fucking hurts. Everything hurts. Today at a friends I complain quite a bit about human touch, because the thought of it hurt because withdrawal fills me with such incredible anger. Which is fine. But now stuff is way more awesome: every touch hurts. My clothes hurt. It hurt to lay in bed. I can feel the air from my ceiling fan and it feels like punches. Beautiful.
I wish I had a bunch of mice to pulverize and get in my moth mistake a week after I killed them again. What’s withdrawal without shit like that?
Anyway, my jaw is clenched like a clenchatron and it hurts but it’s hard to stop. I’ll try another round of Xanax and trazadone and T3s. (Please, if anyone has something stronger, it would help. I’m usually fine with a fair amount of pain but it’s making me so so irascible.) In the meantime I’m trying to focus on thinking about ODSP and taxes. I want to start a campaign round the ODSP. Not a horrid special diets type campaign like that horror horror fest before. No, more focused on the clawback. Who likes the clawback? I have Milton Friedman on my side on that one for god’s sake. People who like the clawback are just moralists.
Shit. The withdrawal. I’m trying to focus on the withy in this post so that i focus on the regulars of politics, accussations, stupid things I’ve done lately, and celebrity gossip in the other ones.
Ok. So the withdrawal. Again. Ran out of my pills, but forgot them also. Then I liked the return of emotiosn brought on by not having them sedated away, and then I comitted to quitting again. Also, I play poker much better when not on my meds.
The cup of rotten Mr. Noodles that I just smelled made me puke. I’m considering smelling it again but I’m not sure it’s a good idea. I’ll just go puke again.